After losing the woman dearest to me recently, I have a wholey new appreciation for Anno and whatever it is that personally happened to him that he puts into his works. I've been and still am lost as of recent, and fully "get" the character of Gendou and his motivations more than I ever cared to. Where many casually write off a villain as casually willing to destroy the world & re-write it to take back someone unjustly taken away from him, I see a hero.
Sorry if that's a bit subjectively dark, but it's a weight I wouldn't wish on anyone. If I ever did meet Hideaki Anno, I'd simply like to buy the man a beer and quietly drink, nothing more.